with YOU, nothing is impossible!

take a look at me

2009-11-06T11:52:00.004+08:00

you called me a stranger, you say i'm a dangerbut all these thoughts are leaving you tonight.i'm broken, abandoned; you are an angelmaking all my dreams come true tonight.i know that i can't make you staybut i would give my final breath.

blahblahblah

2009-05-18T14:59:00.003+08:00

finally found the time to log back in, to put up new posts.life is becoming a routine lately,mon, wed - st. iggy'stues, wed, fri * - fyp?fri, sat, sun - M?early mornings, long days, late nights.how to not be zombified??there's nothing much to blog about..BORING.UTs are coming up, classes are boringly long.school's just a drag!

broken strings

2009-03-01T12:28:00.001+08:00

Let me hold youFor the last timeIt’s the last chance to feel againBut you broke meNow I can’t feel anything When I love youIt’s so untrueI can’t even convince myselfWhen I’m speakingIt’s the voice of someone elseOh what are we doingWe are turning into dustPlaying house in the ruins of us Running back through the fireWhen there’s nothing left to saveIt’s like chasing the very last trainWhen it’s

saying i love you

2009-02-11T00:45:00.001+08:00

You'd always ask me,"how come you never say I love you?"do you really love me?But you know,I wanted something more sweeter,I want to confess to you just like those lovers from movies, so that you wont forgetYou ask me "what's there to hesitate about,is it that hard?"I want to hear what you've got to sayBut you know,I wanted something more special,I want a special day I can always remember, so

un chapitre se termine, tandis qu'un autre se déroule

2009-02-03T23:18:00.002+08:00

Dans moins d'un mois, un chapitre lui-même et se déroulait à peu près terminé lamentablement. Il n'y a rien à ce sujet intéressant qui vaut la peine de parler. Seuls les souvenirs qui s'estompent probablement avec le temps, comme toutes les autres choses. Mais juste après le chapitre terminé, j'ai découvert un mystère encore plus profond qui existait bien avant, j'ai même grandi. C'est une sombre

there's a rainbow at the end

2009-01-07T02:53:00.003+08:00

all i want is a chance for us.i don't care if this doesn't work out,all that matters is that we gave it a shot,our best at it.it doesn't matter if it'll hurt later,because it's hurting more now.even if it doesn't work,at least we still have our memories.so please, let me into your world?................we may run, walk, stumble,drive, or fly, but let usnever lose sight of the reasonfor the

goodbye 2008, hello 2009!

2009-01-01T01:38:00.002+08:00

HELLO!happy new year!may bygones be bygones,may the year ahead be filled with blessings after blessings!here's wishing everyone good health and happiness!take good care & god bless,steffy

2008-12-22T17:00:00.000+08:00

All these miles, haunting questions linger in my mindAnd all the while, making bad decisions out of lineStill I've tried, to let go of the danger in my lifeIt's alright, when that's the only thing I've left behind And there's still time...Wait for me, There's so much more of life for us to seeYou must believe, it's not because of you I've had to leaveWait for me, I only hope that you'll remember

WH's safti dinner

2008-12-22T02:37:00.004+08:00

agreed to be WH's date for his safti dinner on Friday @ grand mecure roxy hotel.apparently he needed a date to avoid additional weekend duties..so i later found out that the dinner was meant to be catered to the dates,and it was kind of a training for the guys to be gentlemen(s)!cause if they don't and get caught by their instructors, they'll get extra duties?so anyway,the hotel is really nice

i've got a confession to make

2008-12-02T23:46:00.001+08:00

I’ve been reading through blogs and came across many thought-inspiring entries that made me reflect on what I’ve been doing all along and realize where I’m heading. There were many obstacles along my journey so far, and each of them brought about many emotions, happy sad bitter hurt depressed anxious excited etc.Looking back, it seems like I’m back at square one now. Back to where I was in the

don't say that you loved me

2008-12-02T14:03:00.005+08:00

I leave the gas on, walk the allies in the darkSleep with candles burning, I leave the door unlockedI'm weaving a rope and running all the red lightsDid I get your attention?Cause I'm sending all the signs and..The clock is ticking and I'll be giving,My two weeks..Pick your favorite shade of blackYou'd best prepare a speechSay something funnySay something sweetBut don't say, that you loved

random updates

2008-11-30T21:21:00.006+08:00

last night i went out for a 'joyride' with subs cause he wanted to just drive around.on our way out to PIE the traffic on the opposite side was massive. so many cars with super slow moving traffic. wanted to eat at ecp, but the place was packed so we ended up at changi village. by the time we reached, i didn't feel hungry already. drove about along changi airport that stretch, stopped by some

MUSE

2008-11-13T23:50:00.003+08:00

yesterday's muse was awesome. kudos to the dancers who worked super super hard.today started on a wrong note. unexpected things happened in the morning.daddy's birthday dinner was unexpected too.we only managed to decide on a place in the afternoon, from big o to orchard hotel to goodwood park. the present, from mont blanc to yves saint laurent to picard.ended up at goodwood park's thai village

empty and beautiful

2008-10-20T19:26:00.004+08:00

My past won't stop haunting meIn this prison there's a fight betweenWho I am and who I used to beThis thorn in my side is a graceFor because of it the flesh and blood of GodWas offered in my place, my placeWhere did my best friends go?In my defense they disappearedJust like Your friends did to You, oh LordBut You were there, You gave me strengthSo this little one might come to knowThe glory of

what have i been doing?

2008-10-20T18:42:00.004+08:00

ever since i came back from world youth day, i haven't really been serving in kanektas.i've stopped attending the connect sessions and if i could, i'd avoid them.although i've secluded myself from the ministry i once loved,i don't want to give up on Him because i know that He has never given up on me.i'm still going for weekly masses, but i'm just not active.i'm considering options like

something worth reaching for

2008-09-27T15:13:00.001+08:00

You know where I've come from,You know my story,You know why I'm standing here...Tonight,Please don't go,Don't be in a hurry,I'm here to make it clear,Make it right,Well I know I've acted foolish,But I promise you no more,I've finally found that somethingWorth reaching for,I'm not here to say I'm sorry,I'm not here to lie to you,I'm here to say I'm ready,That I've finally thought it through,I'm

reminiscing

2008-09-27T12:01:00.000+08:00

It's one hundred and nine degrees in this crowded roomNo room to breathe with walls as cold as a galleryThis is no place for meSuch hard faces set in smokeThe smell lingers in my clothesIt's a bad night to be aloneBut that's the way it goesI thought I had it figured out in a brand new lifeWith a great big houseAnd green initials on the towelsI should be happy nowWell, you got yourself a familyAnd

floating through life as it is

2008-09-20T00:59:00.002+08:00

three weeks into school termand i'm still not trying..as pp becomes a seemingly impossible task to complete,my attendance is just starting to settle from fluctuating.tardiness is still an issue left undealt with.hang-out sessions have been cut down,as school's becoming a priority.ministry is one issue i'd rather not face,i can't explain why i've been absenting myself for oh so long..dance

but i still haven't..

2008-08-20T02:06:00.003+08:00

I have climbed the highest mountainsI have run through the fieldsI have run I have crawledI have scaled these city wallsOnly to be with youBut I still haven't foundWhat I'm looking forBut I still haven't foundWhat I'm looking forI have kissed honey lipsFelt the healing in her fingertipsIt burned like fireThis burning desireI have spoke with the tongue of angelsI have held the hand of the devilIt

2008-08-16T17:46:00.002+08:00

finally started working again,currently holding two jobs :)great way to kill the boring holidays!skipped work today,went holland v, sim, town, mos..headed home four in the morning.ykno.. imy!

updates

2008-07-16T00:48:00.002+08:00

finally found some time to update: here goes, i'll start with DID08 then WYD08.DID (Melbourne):celebrated valerie's birthday on the plane, it was super last minute..but we managed to get some souvenirs and toys from the aircraft&also opened a bottle of champagne for her.we touched down at tullamarine at around 0955,met chris, lynn & roannathey brought us around the city area and got us on the

rexband

2008-06-28T03:11:00.003+08:00

Rexband was great.i can really feel god's presence and how much He's touched them.even though i didn't really have much of an experience tonight.the concert just left me feeling edified and touched.knowing that they're really people who give everything,no matter how busy they are with their own lives or careers.they still take time off and give whatever they have to thank godand touch lives.*

confirmation camp

2008-06-15T00:41:00.002+08:00

confirmation camp is over! (finally?? too soon!)to me, this camp has been a turning point in my life.honestly speaking, i had lost my direction and the fire was already burning out.i was about to turn my back and walk away.but i just can't. (how can i?)almost 6months before the camp, i felt so eager to want to serve.but as time counts down and the camp draws nearer,i had become cold and numb,

so-called life

2008-05-30T10:40:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes it seems like we're all in a prison and the crime is how much we hate ourselves. It's good to get dressed up once in a while, and admit the truth: That when you really look closely, people are so strange and so complicated that they're actually beautiful -- possibly even me."-- Angela

invasion of the control freak

2008-05-14T23:47:00.003+08:00

all it takes is just an invasion of privacy and a letter,to get my life screwed up.that letter was addressed to me; not you.so you don't have any rights to go through itit's not as if there wasn't a copy sent to you.i know that the fault is mine,but still you should have had respectand give me my basic rights.so what if you lay your terms downdo you think you'll be able to stop me?you gotta learn

misa sorry i love you

2008-05-14T00:51:00.004+08:00

i thought i can handle iti thought i could face youi thought everything would be alrightbut i'm wrong, why?why can't i be like you?why does it hurt every timethere's a thought of youyou never seem to be farfrom the endi can't take it anymorei had a lot to saywas thinking my time awayi miss youand things aren't the samethis timei think i'm to blameit's harder to get through the dayswe get older

unspoken

2008-05-04T22:05:00.001+08:00

In a book, in a box, in the closetIn a line, in a song I once heardIn a moment on a front porch late one JuneIn a breath inside a whisper beneath the moonThere it was at the tip of my fingersThere it was on the tip of my tongueThere you were and I had never been that farThere it was the whole world wrapped inside my armsAnd I let it all slip awayThere's a rain that will never stop fallingThere's

pieces; from time to time

2008-05-04T21:28:00.003+08:00

from time to time i have regretsfor all the things i didn't saythat were on my lipsfrom time to time my memory slipsbut you're the one thing in my lifei won't forgetthere'll never be a minute of the daythere'll never be a night so dark that we won't shineor a dream we've lost that can't findi think of you from time to time and in betweenbut this is probably how you're feeling:from the moment that

why people fall in love.

2008-04-24T23:28:00.002+08:00

In some relationships, arguments always seem one sided - with one partner making all the noise as the other quietly calms the storm. It's possible they both have a problem expressing their feelings, but together they're able to reassure each other that emotions are being managed. Different couples will experience it in different ways, but that inexplicable feeling of wholeness you have when

simply red

2008-04-21T23:40:00.001+08:00

Don't know why I still slept on my side of the bedThe emptiness when you were gone kept ringing in my headTold myself I really had to move along nowStop regretting all the things I left unsaid.So I tore up your lettersTook your picture off my wallI deleted your number, it was too hard not to callFelt a little better, told myself I'd be fineGot to live for the good times up ahead. All my friends

shadows

2008-04-21T23:30:00.002+08:00

I close both locks below the windowI close both blinds and turn awaySometimes solutions aren't so simpleSometimes good bye's the only wayIn cards and flowers on your windowYour friends all plead for you to staySometimes beginnings aren't so simpleSometimes good bye's the only wayAnd the sun will set for youThe sun will set for youAnd the shadow of the dayWill embrace the world in greyAnd the sun

withdrawal symptoms

2008-04-19T23:47:00.002+08:00

the past week seems as if i've withdrawn from reality.it seems like i've succeeded in isolating myself from everyone.i've isolated myself from classes, acquaintances, friends, cliques.i've taken the week to isolate and withdraw myself,as if i'm pulling myself back into my shell, the way a hermit lives.what exactly am i afraid of?that i've actually unknowingly pulled myself away from the crowds,

i thought it was..

2008-04-17T22:28:00.002+08:00

Well, you were there when the wall came downA baby king with a grown man’s crownAnd we played in the sun as the curtain was crumblingWell I was young and I could not seeThat if you go won’t you please take meAnd you told me that I would forget you eventually (and I nearly did)Yeah, yeahI thought it was over but it’s notI thought it was over but it’s notI’m spinning in circles I can’t stopI

the first time..

2008-04-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

We're both looking for somethingWe've been afraid to findIt's easier to be brokenIt's easier to hideLooking at you, holding my breathFor once in my life I'm scared to deathI'm taking a chance letting you insideI'm feeling alive all over againAs deep as the sky, under my skinLike being in love, she says, for the first timeMaybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling rightWhere I belong with you tonightLike being

Te Busqué

2008-04-15T14:42:00.001+08:00

Estuve bien, estuve malTuve rabia, tuve pazY todo lo que te diPor un tubo se fueEn el cielo me sentíY en el suelo me viUna vida asíNo es posible vivirQuiero sentirme mejorQuiero sentirme mejorCariño mió sentirnos mejorPor esoTe busque de bajo de las piedras y no te encontréEn la mañana fría y en la noche te busqueHasta enloquecerPero tu llegaste a mi vida como una luzSanando las heridas de mi

dare me

2008-04-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the planetWelcome to existenceEveryone's hereEveryone's hereEverybody's watching you nowEverybody waits for you nowWhat happens nextWhat happens next I dare you to moveI dare you to moveI dare you to lift yourself up off the floorI dare you to moveI dare you to moveLike today never happenedToday never happened beforeWelcome to the falloutWelcome to resistanceThe tension is hereTension

forty kinds of sadness

2008-04-14T23:57:00.003+08:00

Two days chasing me aroundI go crazy when you're outside of my worldWhen you're outside of my worldNo sounds singing me to sleepI don't want the room to breatheJust be with me...Just be with me!I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you're gone.I feel the same thing always happens when you're goneAnd i know you're just around the cornerBut just around the corner is not enoughIt's not enoughMy eyes are

it's not over?

2008-04-14T23:55:00.001+08:00

There is freedom within, there is freedom withoutTry to catch the deluge in a paper cupThere's a battle ahead, many battles are lostBut you'll never see the end of the roadWhile you're travelling with meHey now, hey nowDon't dream its overHey now, hey nowWhen the world comes inThey come, they comeTo build a wall between usWe know they won't winNow I'm towing my car, there's a hole in the roofMy

they've really hurt me.

2008-04-14T23:53:00.001+08:00

Give me timeTo realise my crimeLet me love and stealI have danced inside your eyesHow can I be realDo you really want to hurt meDo you really want to make me cryPrecious kissesWords that burn meLovers never ask you whyIn my heart the fires burningChoose my colourFind a starPrecious people always tell meThat's a stepA step too farDo you really want to hurt meDo you really want to make me cryDo you

do you see it?

2008-04-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

You with the sad eyesDon't be discouraged, though I realiseIt's hard to take couragein a world, full of people, you can lose sight of it allAnd the darkness inside youwill make you feel so smallBut I see your true colours, shining throughI see your true colours, and that's why I love youSo don't be afraid, to let them showYour true colours, true coloursAre beautiful, like a rainbowShow me a smile

is there anyone out there who really cares?

2008-04-14T23:41:00.001+08:00

I'm standing on a bridgeI'm waiting in the darkI thought that you'd be here by nowThere's nothing but the rainNo footsteps on the groundI'm listening but there's no soundIsn't anyone tryin to find me?Won't somebody come take me homeIt's a damn cold nightTrying to figure out this lifeWon't you take me by the handTake me somewhere newI don't know who you areBut I... I'm with youI'm with youI'm

why can't i live?

2008-04-14T23:39:00.001+08:00

I need an a-larm system in my houseSo I know when people areCreeping aboutThese people areFreaking me out(these days)It's getting hectic everywhere that I goThey won't leave me aloneThere's things they all wanna knowI'm paranoid off all the people I meetWhy are they talking to me?And why can't anyone seeI just wanna liveDon't really care about the things that they sayDon't really care about what

beautiful lies that one can't tell

2008-04-14T09:47:00.000+08:00

Watching the rainA thousand voices call her nameShe turns the lights onTo blind the painShe runs out the door callingShe leaves the TV onWhat does she doWhen her faith is fallingShe lights a candleShadows dancing on the wallWill there be moonlightWhen darkness fallsBeautiful lies, Beautiful liesWill she surviveAs angels cry, As angels cryAre you there, Are you thereShe's all aloneWithout a prayer

what a joke

2008-04-14T09:46:00.000+08:00

I started a joke, which started the whole world crying,But I didnt see that the joke was on me, oh no.I started to cry, which started the whole world laughing,Oh, if Id only seen that the joke was on me.I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes,And I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that Id said.Til I finally died, which started the whole world living,Oh, if Id only seen

i just wanna breathe

2008-04-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over,Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew,Never knowing where you're going, when you face a brand new day,It used to be that way, now I just close my eyes and sayI just want to breathe again, learn to face the joy and pain,Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little,Live a little more,I just wanna face the day,Forget about the woes

is it true that i'm not alone

2008-04-13T23:55:00.001+08:00

When you feel all aloneAnd the world has turned its back on youGive me a moment please to tame your wild wild heartI know you feel like the walls are closing in on youIt's hard to find relief and people can be so coldWhen darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymoreLet me be the one you callIf you jump I'll break your fallLift you up and fly away with you into the nightIf

oh, just let me die

2008-04-13T23:39:00.001+08:00

Are we at war tonightWill there be angelswhispering to midnightDon't wake when lightning strikesMy heart for you is trueLet no one take that from youTime is running tightCan't change from wrong to rightSo I'll close my eyes and dream a littleJust like how we used to be babyIt's time to say farewellNo need to cry of feelingsOh it's alrightAll in the book of lifeHeaven grant me one last wish I beg

分裂

2008-04-13T23:11:00.001+08:00

坐着我的摩托车载你缓缓的离开考不上好的学校可以不微笑就走把手慢慢交给我放下心中的困惑雨点从两旁划过割开两种精神的我经过老伯的家篮框变得好高爬过的那棵树又何时变得渺小这样也好开始没人注意到我等雨变强之前我们将会分化软弱趁时间没发觉让我带着你离开没有了证明没有了空虚基于两种立场我会罩着你趁时间没发觉让我带着你离开这不是顽固这不是逃避没人帮着你走才快乐坐着我的摩托车载你缓缓的离开考不上好的学校可以不微笑就走把手慢慢交给我放下心中的困惑雨点从两旁划过割开两种精神的我经过老伯的家篮框变得好高爬过的那棵树又何时变得渺小这样也好开始没人注意到你我等雨变强之前我们将会分化软弱趁时间没发觉让我带着你离开没有了证明没有了空虚基于两种立场我会罩着你趁时间没发觉让我带着你离开这不是顽固这不是逃避没人帮着你走才快乐

彩虹

2008-04-13T23:05:00.001+08:00

哪里有彩虹告诉我能不能把我的愿望还给我为什么天这么安静所有的云都跑到我这里有没有口罩一个给我释怀说了太多就成真不了也许时间是一种解药也是我现在正服下的毒药看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着你的声音这么近我却抱不到没有地球太阳还是会绕没有理由我也能自己走你要离开我知道很简单你说依赖是我们的阻碍就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱当作我最后才明白看不见你的笑要我怎么睡的着你的声音这么近我却抱不到没有地球太阳还是会绕会绕没有理由我也能自己走掉释怀说了太多就成真不了也许时间是一种解药解药也是我现在正服下的毒药

不能说的秘密

2008-04-13T22:58:00.001+08:00

冷咖啡离开了杯垫我忍住的情绪在很后面拼命想挽回的从前在我脸上依旧清晰可见最美的不是下雨天是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐回忆的画面在荡着秋千梦开始不甜你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远或许命运的签只让我们遇见只让我们相恋这一季的秋天飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片要我怎么捡

你比从前快乐

2008-04-13T22:40:00.003+08:00

走在熙来攘往的街头Walking along the busy streets你不再牵箸我的手You don't hold my hand anymore小心翼翼的将你小拍勾I carefully hold your little finger 泪也小心翼翼的流Tears fall gently down有些事情你在瞒箸我You've been hiding some things from me 你终于还是开了口But in the end, you still had to say them 淡淡一句还是朋友An emotionless "We can still be friends" (I carefully hold your little finger) 泪也如刀割Your tears are like a cutting knife (You don't hold

世界末日

2008-04-13T22:24:00.004+08:00

想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪点点头承认自己会怕黑我只求能借一点的时间来陪你却连同情都不给想哭来试探自己麻痹了没是全世界好象只有我疲惫无所无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞天灰灰会不会让我忘了你是谁夜越黑梦违背难追难回味我的世界将被摧毁也许事与愿违 (也许事与愿违)累不累睡不睡单影无人相依偎夜越黑梦违背有谁肯安慰我的世界将被摧毁也许颓废也是... 想哭来试探自己麻痹了没全世界好象只有我疲惫无所无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞天灰灰会不会让我忘了你是谁夜越黑梦违背难追难回味我的世界将被摧毁也许事与愿违累不累睡不睡单影无人相依偎夜越黑梦违背难追难回味我的世界将被摧毁也许颓废也是 ~ 另一种美is it really the end?

complicated heart

2008-04-13T22:11:00.003+08:00

Don't know what to say nowdon't know where to startI don't know how to handlea complicated heartYou tell me you are leavingbut I just have to saybefore you throw it all away Even if you want to go aloneI will be waiting when you're coming homeif you need someone to ease the painyou can lean on me, my love will still remainDon't know what you're thinkingto me it seems quite toughto hold a

can't you see i'm dying

2008-04-13T21:58:00.003+08:00

you said, it's overi said, that's okayi wasn't into you anywayi told you,lately you irritate me,your laugh is too loud,you're the last person i'd look at,if you were in a crowdcould you tell?i was lying and hiding the truth awayand what i really wanted to sayis you are incredible, you are amazingyou blow my mind one of a kindi'm having a meltdownyou are incredible you are amazing,but sometimes

don't be just another dime

2008-04-08T23:42:00.001+08:00

God broke the mold,When he made this one I knowShe's breathtaking but so much moreShe walks in the room, your lungs closeMaking you never want to breathe againHer boyfriend has got so much doughSo much ice his neck and wrist frozeIs he faithful to her? Hell noBut she chose to be with him, shortyTell me is the money worth your soul?Tell me what's the reason that you hold onWhen you know that dude

2008-04-07T23:58:00.002+08:00

First day of class - I'm LATE.& I realized that each time you're late,your grades go down by 0.5!like.. that's so unfair!unfortunately, I in desperate need of As.so I can't afford to keep turning up late anymore,furthermore I'm already getting 3Xs off all modules.ANNABELLE nearly gave us a heart attack during breakout 2.anyway,HAPPY 18th!!stay strong &be firm, okay?

entrepreneurial personality test

2008-04-07T23:52:00.004+08:00

Trailblazers are Generalists who are very competitive, ambitious and goal-oriented; so much so that they have a tendency to be aggressive and sometimes take a steamroller approach. They are restless and energetic, a strong drive and a sense of urgency, regardless of the task at hand. They tend to have two speeds: fast and faster. Independent

hit me

2008-03-23T02:11:00.002+08:00

enough about me,it's your turn to do some answering.your past seems more intriguing than me,so i wanna know more.now, just like you,i've heard things.i'm gonna give you the benefit of doubt,so tell me what's going on,tell me the past,for the first time,i'm gonna love history.

surrender!

2008-03-23T02:03:00.002+08:00

i give up, i'm tired of living this waymy fuel to continue faking is dying outi can't go on the way i used toi'm gonna take the fall, take the shoti'm gonna lay it all downi'm giving up, i surrenderi don't know what's gonna happenor how many more attacks,i've to absorbtoday was the last straw,i'm not gonna take it all in silentlyeven though i still won't voice it outbut from now on,i'm gonna live

who's that broken little girl

2008-03-23T01:55:00.004+08:00

Mirror mirror lie to meShow me what I wanna seeMirror mirror lie to meWhy don't I like the girl I seeThe one who's standing right in front of meWhy don't I think before I speakI should have listened to that voice inside meI must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mindTo say the kind of things I said last nightWhy did I let you walk awayWhen all I had to do was say I'm sorryI let my pride

assholes &jackasses

2008-03-23T01:46:00.002+08:00

how naive was i..to actually let my guard down.&just when i left myself open,i realize that there's i'm about to get hurt.how can i ever learn to trust?what else have i left to say..i tore myself open,but as soon as i did it,i found ample reasons,to sew myself shut again.

because of...

2008-03-23T01:36:00.004+08:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you didI will not let myselfCause my heart so much miseryI will not break the way you did,You fell so hardI've learned the hard wayTo never let it get that farBecause of youI never stray too far from the sidewalkBecause of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurtBecause of youI find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around meBecause

updated

2008-03-15T11:43:00.004+08:00

thursday:i've finally showed up in school,after a super super long time,i'm back for dance practices :)we had rock&roll classes,okay, since i haven't been turning up.it wasn't easy for me to get use to the basics and all,but cramping 4 lessons worth of dance choreo+basics into 1,amazing how i still managed to grasp most of it.after dance, went to ECP.and yes, it was pouring,so it seemed crazy to

sorry, put the blame on me

2008-03-11T12:43:00.003+08:00

Hey you,You drive me crazy,Doubt I’ll ever understand why you hang around,Cause I can’t see a reason for you to keep holding on.I thought you’d already given up,I thought you’d stopped trying,I didn’t know what was going on,I thought we could still be friends,My mind’s in a whirlwind,What’s with my character?Why is it deeper than what meets the eye?Why did you only notice that?What’s with my eyes

not gonna write you a love song

2008-03-11T00:52:00.004+08:00

Head under waterAnd they tell me to breathe easy for a whileThe breathing gets harder, even I know thatYou made room for me but it's too soon to seeIf I'm happy in your handsI'm unusually hard to hold on toBlank stares at blank pagesNo easy way to say thisYou mean well, but you make this hard on meI'm not gonna write you a love song'cause you asked for it'cause you need one, you seeI'm not gonna

more than just a day

2008-03-09T03:06:00.003+08:00

i've been so totally forgetful for the past few days..today's been super packed.was actually scheduled to work, 9am - 6pm.but i had to cancel, because of dental appointment.good news or not,i'm gonna get braces!!!it's gonna be on this friday?? =Sbut it means i've got to set aside about $4k for dental.meaning i've got to work harder.. *starts to see stars*okay, the next fun thing would be the smu

is your date really into you?

2008-03-05T15:20:00.002+08:00

It’s no secret that people spend a large portion of the time they spend with a date wondering, Does this person like me? And while you would think the signs would be clear, all to often they’re not. Even if your date has been smiling up a storm or raptly listening to your views on alternative fuel, he or she could just be acting interested and secretly hoping the evening will end soon. But that’s

jive amazing race

2008-03-04T00:02:00.003+08:00

i was the first to sign up,yet last to turn up..for jive's amazing race which was today.took my time to head down to sentosa,(can't believe i went to sentosa with such a weather)finally met with the rest.found out my initial grouping,but eventually i got to choose my own group(cause i kept insisting i was groupless :x)though the race wasn't all so great,but the experience was great!bonding among

fairytale story

2008-02-27T13:02:00.001+08:00

A pearl is beauty with a sad tale,Starts out with a grain of sand,Because sand is foreign,The oyster constantly salivating,Layers and layers of protective tissue,Just to protect itself against the sand,Yet it’s appreciated as a valuable.In the same way,Someone who is constantly getting hurt,Would gradually keep building up masks,Hoping that it’s true self,Would never be exposed, never to be hurt

sleepless nights

2008-02-27T13:00:00.001+08:00

Why do people have to be violent towards the ones they love?Will violence ever help solve any issues?What good will instilling fear in a child do?Eventually leading the child keeping everything inside,Bottling up the problems of life,Yearning for the tender loving care, that’s never shownBeing rebellious just to be heard,Alone, crying the night away.All these hurts,All these fears,All these

lifeless souls

2008-02-27T12:56:00.002+08:00

Life is like a bird trapped in a cage,Its movement restricted by the metal bars,Its vision wide as it seems, yet limited by the cage.Life is like being a puppet,Living exactly as the puppeteer directs,Restricted by the strings and orders,Forced to do as it’s told.Life is like living in an empty shell,Faking emotions just to please others,Hiding inside its shell,Wanting to be seen in all its glory

amor confundi

2008-02-24T00:41:00.002+08:00

La prima volta che ci siamo incontrati,I difficilmente si sapeva.Il primo contatto abbiamo fatto,I difficilmente si sapeva.La prossima volta che si videro i,Eravamo come estranei.Poi ci sono state voci,Voci di un romanticismo in corso.Non vi è stata mai alcuna possibilità di 'noi'?Uscito per un paio di volte,Oggi è stato il giorno,Il giorno 'noi' è stato cancellato.Non c'è via d'uscita adesso,

great is thy faithfulness

2008-02-22T23:48:00.003+08:00

"Because of the LORD's great lovewe are not consumed,for his compassions never fail.They are new every morning;great is your faithfulness."(Lamentations 3:22 - 23)She drove through the early morning hourstrying to push the cobwebs from her mind.This fresh disappointment camejust when she had begun to hope that,this time, things would be different.Why did people always seem to let her down?The

2008-02-21T00:40:00.002+08:00

the long awaited results for sem 2 is out!with all the Xs I've received,all the skipping classes,all the late attendance,and all the partial attendance,as well as Cs and even an F.guess what??I STILL PASSED!ain't that great?the only thing is that,I can't slack during year 2!thankful that I actually scrapped through,and with results better than I had expected =D

2008-02-13T00:42:00.000+08:00

it's still within the chinese new year period,but cny's already quite over for me.went around visiting - same people, same places.been mahjong-ing but kept losing,i guess gambling a no-no?this year's visiting in m'sia is quite ok.as usual, time was spent eating, playing, slacking, sleeping.firecrackers doesn't seem to be as fun as they used to.probably cause we didn't order in advance,but it was

2008-02-04T02:23:00.000+08:00

hearts on fire rally was great,definitely 'fruitful' in a way.

2008-01-31T01:15:00.000+08:00

why am i always falling sick?each time i just recovered, i fall sick again.why??ever since i started first year in rp,in fact, during the orientation at rp,i have been falling sick almost every week.amazingly i don't fall sick super often during the term breaks.i can never seem to get away from being sick.here i am once again,falling sick.

2008-01-26T16:14:00.000+08:00

ride the night was a great workout for me.considering the fact that i haven't done any sports in like..YEARS.. since i stopped softball.at some point of the ride,i felt as if i just ran finish 10 rounds of a track,my muscles were cramping up, thanks to drinking 100plus at the wrong timing.we started at 10plus-11 and ended at 6plus.cabbed home, climb a few flight of stairs,fell asleep on the floor

2008-01-25T12:11:00.000+08:00

thanks toEILEEN, THE MARTIANi made it for enterprise ut.tho i was a lil latebut still i made it can..so your efforts weren't wasted at all!!!!;D

2008-01-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

oh wells, i missed another ut.hopefully, i won't flunk the semester.

2008-01-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

here to blog again.celebrated chris & my mom's birthday at BOTAN.it was a little pricy,but the food was great.the portions were a lot too!so much to eat, so little space :Xit's the 1st and last time i'm ever going to eat an escargot.it's such a slimey experience that actually stays???really sleepy cause i'm so full.there's ut tomorrow,so i'll just end here (:

2008-01-15T16:33:00.000+08:00

As requested,this post will be all about NICKI.since i've no inspiration to blog,and the man himself suggested.so let it be done.it's been so long since i've last met & caught up with him.he's still a gamer, but a PROFESSIONAL now.he's finally attending masses now, coming back to church pretty soon.right?!

2007-12-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

finally some internet surfing!!china was great! but i was freezing!!!!tried out snowboarding, it's not as easy as you think it is!currently am at L'Hotel's lobby,grabbing the free computers and surfing the net, whee~10 things you can do in hongkong:1) EAT2) SHOP3) EAT4) SHOP5) EAT6) SHOP7) EAT8) SHOP9) EAT10) SHOP!!!!!*not forgetting to squeeze time to sleep (:i wanna thank GOD, for the safe

2007-12-11T12:14:00.000+08:00

YISS WAS TOTALLY AWESOME!i guess GOD touched me once again, (without fail).HE's just so so so AMAZING!i'm so glad that HE's in my life.serving in YI through intercessory doesn't seem like what i'd do.frankly speaking,i hardly pray, i don't like to pray out loud,i'd usually say a prayer softly in my heart,in fact until now, i don't often pray out loud.especially when i'm alone.but yet, i joined

2007-12-04T09:56:00.000+08:00

hellos,YI is coming up pretty soon!!it's just 2 days away (:really anticipating the camp.school's been super super boring.and i really dread going to school.randomness.

2007-11-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

i've been sick every now and then.school is boring, conflicts arising.but hack that. nobody cares.schedule's piling up,stress building up.getting wasted could be a form of release.tired!!!my eye's been in really bad condition.my cornea's isn't in a good condition,which explains the pain i went through ):i'm sleeping early.nights.

2007-10-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

heyyyshaven't been blogging in a while.haven't really been doing anything in a while :Xi haven't been as hardworking as i was in sem 1.i haven't been on time for classes,and yes, i've been skipping school >.

2007-10-05T22:58:00.001+08:00

it was a close shave.death was merely but a step away.in just a split second, a car zoomed past me;followed by the breeze it brought along.if i had taken just another step,i definitely wouldn't be here writing this entry right now;probably be lying in the hospital or dead already.yet at that time,my mind was a blank.the only thoughts that came through were:-what will happen if my parents found

2007-09-29T01:33:00.000+08:00

When I see your smile, tears roll down my face. I can't replace. And now that I'm strong, I have figured out, How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul. And I know, I'll find, deep inside me, I can be the one. I will never let you fall.I'll stand up with you forever.I'll be there for you through it all.Even if saving you sends me to heaven. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. Seasons

2007-09-29T01:20:00.000+08:00

"cause we're ordinary, GOD makes us EXTRAordinary"

2007-09-28T23:24:00.000+08:00

i'd like to say, that i'm actually a quiet person.i usually keep my thoughts deep inside, buried.sometimes, it's because i'd rather listen than speak.sometimes, it's because i'm afraid to speak up.then again, i realise that i don't speak up,when will i ever be heard?i'd like to share a question with all of you.WOULD YOU PREFER TO CHOOSE MINISTRY OR GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND? WHY?i'd like to share a

2007-09-28T16:54:00.000+08:00

finally understood how most of my classmates felt during science module last week.gosh, she really gets on your nerves!!!no, seriously! she does!!OOOPPPSSS, i forgot to publish this entry :Xoh wells,the fac is kinda pushy. i'm starting to love the class for making lessons enjoyable (:

scars

2007-09-28T01:07:00.000+08:00

"I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut;And my scars remind me that the past is realI'm pissed cause you came around;You're making me insaneAll I can say is"*scars fade with time;my scars are gone,yet the pain is real*"And I just wanna be aloneYou shouldn't ever come aroundWhy don't you just go home?I tried to grab your handAnd I left my heart openBut you didn't understand;But at least I can say

2007-09-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

i really hate myself for falling for you.*FALLING**FALLING**FALLING**FALLEN*the pain inflicted upon myself.i hate myself.*DYING**DYING**DEAD*i WANT a new me.shit really happens.

2007-09-25T21:26:00.000+08:00

something's wrong. it's obvious.but what is??i don'tkno.sorry to say,i'm leaving this mess.i want out.love.lies.

2007-09-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm;for love is as strong as death, its jealously unyielding as the grave.It burns like a blazing fire, like a mighty flame.Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot wash it away.If one were to give all the wealth of his house for love, it would be utterly scorned.

2007-09-20T13:43:00.000+08:00

finally found time to update, using my second break to update this quiet blog.school's great yet exhausting. my new classmates are averagely fun to be around. some crazy, some quiet and some anti-social people. on the first day of school, we already bonded quite a bit. the feeling of a great semester coming along ((:been busy lately. school, prac, sponsorship follow-ups, etc. i still have yet to

2007-09-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

went blading @ ecp. super exhausting*proves that i need to start training again*anway, got my lappy back at last;loves the new screen!!we got the items from joanna,gonna head to chompang to get the other items tomorrow..and i seriously think i'm falling sick :(`finally back to being sick..tomorrow's going to be another long day.

2007-09-11T13:03:00.000+08:00

one of my babes is feeling down & out,i think this suits her mood.so here's to you, babe :I can take the rain on the roof of this empty houseThat don’t bother meI can take a few tears now and then and just let them outI’m not afraid to cry every once in a whileEven though going on with you gone still upsets meThere are days every now and again I pretend I’m okBut that’s not what gets meWhat hurts

2007-09-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

hey people,i just got back from SJC confirmation camp '07 ((:although i'm very very very SUPER tired. i just feel like sharing the experience of this amazing camp. just 10 months ago, i was a confirmant attending my own confirmation camp, but now, i was one of the facilitators for this year's camp. as it was my very first time serving (with a certain level of commitment) in a church camp. i'm